Thoughts of you brighten my day,
They come to me quietly,
Then refuse to go away,
Sweet love, tender, forgiving,
Ravishing desire, all consuming,
Miles separate us,
Yet our hearts are close
Thoughts of you brighten my day,
They come to me quietly,
Then refuse to go away,
Sweet love, tender, forgiving,
Ravishing desire, all consuming,
Miles separate us,
Yet our hearts are close
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यह मेरा जीवन है,
यह मेरी कहानी है,
लेकिन, बिन तुम्हारे अधूरी है,
लो तुमको दिया यह जीवन सारा,
अब इस कहानी पर,
है नाम तुम्हारा…
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कभी प्यार में ,
कभी यूँ ही इंतज़ार में,
मुझे तुम याद आते हो,
कभी चलते राहों में,
कभी मेरे ख्यालों में,
मुझे तुम याद आते हो,
कभी किसी की बातों में,
कभी तन्हा रातों में,
मुझे तुम याद आते हो,
बस तुम याद आते हो…
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The Moon and I,
companions are we,
ever since I started to stay up late nights,
thinking of you.
The moon too is in love with you,
since she saw your photo on my window sill,
she won’t admit it,
but I saw her looking in,
through my window, searching for you,
but you aren’t here with me,
and the moon is luckier than me,
for she can watch you on foreign shores,
as you walk by on moonlight nights,
she says, you might be in love with her too,
for you see her everyday but once a month,
as for me, I don’t worry,
’cause you may look at her, but,
you belong with me….
when we are together,
you and me,
we can watch her,
with each other for company,
and her lonely as ever!
–Shailee
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Stuck in the middle of nowhere,
Oblivion in sight,
Nowhere to go, nowhere to hide,
My lips are parched dry,
And no more tears to cry,
I have waited so long for you,
Moments elapsed in eternity,
And eternities elapsed in a moment,
It seems I am stuck in time,
I know you shall come to me,
It’s just that I feel trapped,
Trapped by emotions, trapped in pain, trapped in time,
I am just an on-looker watching life pass me by,
Nothing matters anymore,
I feel nothing,
A body without a soul, I lost my soul to you
Come to me and breathe life into me,
Let me live again, love again and perhaps hurt again
I am waiting for you, still waiting….
– Shailee
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The Earth shook and stood still,
It started to move again but, didn’t ..
as if, a little confused.
A murderer spared his victim,
and profusely apologised!
A thief donated all his belongings,
to charity!!
Apparently, they too were confused..
A man stopped and muttered, “What’s happening?“
Another replied, “Oh! Haven’t you heard? It’s the Devil……“
“The Devil??“
“Yes!, the Devil is in love!“
Deep down below and anguished cry,
“Oh why? Oh why?
Did I fall in love?
and that too with an Angel!“
“Oh I hate her!
No, I don’t!!
I shall burn her!
No, I won’t!!
Rip her wings apart…
but, that I just can’t!!“
“Oh the Heaven with me,
Why did I fall in love?“
And, then he thought of her,
all glowing and pure.
She stood for all he hated,
and yet he didn’t hate her.
He didn’t like it all,
It made him seem small
He was the Devil after all!
He didn’t know what he feared more,
Losing her or losing himself,
because, lose himself he would,
If he allowed himself to love…
His despair shook the Earth,
and his sadness shook it still,
But his love it was,
that reined in the evil.
Atlast he decided ,
he allowed himself to love!
He sought her out
and confessed his love,
she demurely accepted,
she too was in love!
Their arms reached out,
bodies embraced,
their thirsting lips found each other
and then,
there was no Devil,
there was no Angel,
there was nothing,
just a slowly spreading warmth of their love remained….
–Shailee
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Love your neighbour as yourself! – A beautiful quote, but, meaningless till you love and appreciate yourself first. It is interesting how many people assume loving yourself is selfish! But is it really? I believe it is not selfish to love yourself.
Unless you love and respect yourself, you cannot truly do it for others. Accept yourself for who you are with all your shortcoming, quirks and nuttiness , it is all of that along with your good things which makes *YOU* special. There maybe millions and zillions of people on this planet , but none can take your place ever. Remember, “you may be somebody to the world, but to somebody you are the world” ….
Okay, I think I am getting sidetrackde from the topic now, coming back to it. I think you know now what I mean when I say love yourself, so coming to “Love your neighbour” part of the quote. Does this mean your neighbour , literally ? Well that and it means much more than that. In today’s world, we are all neighbours, courtesy the internet. Also , in today’s world people are a tad too touchy and quick to label anything small even as a racist comment or as a personal comment… If you learned to love your neighbour as yourself, you would learn to look beyond the race and the words. Also, you would be more considerate for the other person, after all you wouldn’t comment on yourself or would you?
So, first let us love ourself, second let us put aside our insecurities and prejudices and Lastly, love our neighbour as ourself.
PS I love you guys!
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“Let each child enjoy the gift of life that god has bestowed on him. ” Childhood is precious and important from the point of view of overall growth and development of the child in the years to come. If a child is happy and contended during his early days the same sense of fulfillment is likely to continue as he grows. Contentment and happiness in early years will make him into a caring person who loves to share his emotions, joys, sorrows, gifts, belongings and more so his time with others. He looks for happiness of others. He learns the joy of giving. Giving for the sake of others happiness. He learns to derive his happiness from a smile on others face.
A child maybe allowed to grow at his own pace undisturbed with too much of early teaching and preaching, at-least till the age of 5 years, there are so many familiar faces to care, indulge and pamper the child that even a child from the poorest family feels like a prince charming. This emotional contentment even in abject poverty, where a child may live on torn clothes, sometimes even without them, eats a staple diet, mostly plays and sleeps under open sky unmindful of the dust or insects surrounding him. But this child is happy .
He values and cherishes even small and inexpensive gifts. He learns to play and share happiness with a torn ball and make a bat out of a broken stick. He lives life as it is. He shows small tantrums at times, but is easy to be satisfied. He explores the world around him and seeks knowledge by seeing, hearing and doing. He seldom falls ill.
But a child from a well-to-do family, where again both the parents are working is either left under the care of the maid or is sent to a nearby crèche. It is an experience by itself seeing the separation of the child from the mother when being dropped at the crèche. The tears tell about the fears of the child. No amount of toys, chocolates and other eatables tend to attract him. Even if he becomes quiet, his eyes are always looking for someone missing. Smile comes to his face with great effort and is wiped off soon. The child tends to develop a feeling of deprivation; in an environment of plenty. He tends to become possessive. There is an inherent fear in his mind that what he likes most may not remain with him all the time; like his parents. He develops distrust when each day’s promise of separating him is broken. The child feels cheated. He learns to distrust, he learns to cheat, he learns to break promises, he learns to hoard, not to give and above all he learns that happiness is short lived, so live to the hilt now. He becomes selfish and sick.
The above examples are merely illustrative and may differ from child to child depending upon the family circumstances.
Life is a collection of past experiences: if the childhood experiences are bitter, the child will carry bitterness inside. This will be demonstrated in his behaviour. The child is likely to be devoid of human values and no amount of bookish teaching of morals and values shall work when real life experiences, deeply rooted in the sub-conscious mind tell a different story.
Circumstances may compel parents to treat a child differently, unknowingly not allowing a child to “enjoy the precious gift of life” atleast during the early childhood. But then as adults, we only have to find a solution to the problem that we have allowed ourselves.
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The author is a multi-talented person. His interests include Education, Psychology, Astrology & Gardening. He has a doctorate in Inorganic Chemistry, is a retired Air force Officer , a Psychologist and is currently employed as a school Prinicpal. Most importantly he is my Dad!
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Sunnybrook Hospital’s emergency ward was one of the four traumas wards in Ontario, Canada. It was also the busiest hospital in Toronto seated just off Bayview. A rather narrow four-lane road with more traffic than it could hold.
The emergency ward sat off back to the right of the main hospital building. It was the first building to the right when coming off Bayview Avenue. The exterior of the building was identical to the main and four other ones that made up Sunnybrook Hospital. The only difference was the inside.
The ward itself looked well used. It was divided into two main sections. The front part was the waiting area. It held a continuous row of chairs along the wall, and two lines in the middle facing the check in desk. There was a large wide path to the left. It connected a clear path from the outer ward doors to the actual emergency ward. The doors to the waiting room had a bright red sticker across the window of the sliding doors that read ‘EMERGENCY’ in white, bold Helvetica lettering. Along that wall was the check in desk. The desk was a counter that sat inside the emergency ward with a bulletproof glass screen in front, and a solid wall running the rest of the wall.
The inside of the ward was definition of organized chaos. There was a central desk right the front doors. It was the place where the staff gather around to discuss, argue, and talk to one another. The desk area contained: a double sided white board, three computers, three desks in box formation, chairs, patient charts, pens, carts, cubbyholes, and lots of loose papers. This was probably the most organized spaced. The rest of the ward held: 12 patients’ beds, all divided by faded yellow curtains; white or brown carts holding different materials; two ER rooms at the back and a staff only lounge. All of which sat on grey, speckled, and yet very cracked floor; and surround by wine, purple coloured walls that were stained in many places. So stained that it was impossible to tell what stain was what now. Many of which looked as though they were growing some sort of black mould in their centres or edges.
The entire place smelt that gross indescribable hospital smells. The one that you only find in highly sterile places. Which causes all employees to be constantly freezing; the visitors to feel sick, and all patients to complain about it being to hot.
“The staff toilet flooded again,” came Aaron’s voice as he walked towards the central desk. And stood in front of the ward’s resident go to guy.
He was heavyset man that looked oddly out of place at the small desk he worked at. He was bald, and wore a sleeveless muscle shirt instead of the mandatory white doctor coat. It was evident as to why, his large pumped up muscled arms wouldn’t have allowed such a tight-sleeved fit.
“Again? Wonderful, I’ll call maintenance.” He said picking up the phone. “Although, it’ll probably be as long as the last time.”
“Great,” said Aaron sarcastically. “Looks like we’ll be using the public toilets down the hall again.”
“What’s this about public toilets?” came a female voice from behind them. Aaron turned his head to the side and nodded his head towards Sarah. Sarah was the head nurse here. A petite woman dressed in green scrubs, with her hair pulled back into a ponytail and a bright pink pen stuck in it.
“Aaron flooded the toilet again.” Both Sarah and the desk guy broke out into laughter.
“Your girlfriend made spicy Mexican food again?” said Sarah through a mouth full of giggles.
“Right,” said Aaron drumming his hands on the desk and smiling. “So her cooking isn’t great, she is better at other more important things.”
“You mean like –“
“Right people, we have a call coming in, the giggles can wait for later!” Came the booming voice of Nina the ward’s director.
Aaron and Sarah along with a few more staff members followed Nina out. They walked out the ward doors, through the crowed waiting room, and out into the car bay. The sound of sirens could be heard in the distance. It sounded like maybe three or four ambulances.
“All right people,” said Nina turning around to look at the 15 or so staff members. “There was an explosion at a local factory. The victims have third degree burns and other superficial injuries.”
The sirens were coming closer. You could just about see their flashing red sirens against the night sky as they barrowed down Bayview’s narrow lanes. There were a total of four, all-weaving in and out of cars as they speed forward. As they neared the final intersection to assess the hospital, their sirens and horns blazed causing cars to screeched or skid to a stop. The first ambulance, gunning forward still, made the left turn to the hospital. Sliding through the intersection’s middle with screeching tires just made it into the lane’s entrance. The second ambulance handled the left turn the same but with more success and followed the first on closely into the waiting bay. Where they rolled to a stop. The third ambulance was still coming; took the left turn a bit late and slid through the lights and into a few stationary cars in the opposite lane. The cars made loud crunching noises and the back in hit them. The tires screeched and the ambulance launched forward and drove into the entrance closely following the fourth ambulance. They both turned into the emergency bay at a high speed. The fourth one skidded to a halt; tapping the side of the first ambulance. While the third one prowled into the curve, up onto the side walk and crashed into the side of the entrance’s doors.
“Okay…,” said Nina looking at the last two ambulances to arrive. “Obviously Toronto’s finest are on holiday. All right, least see what we’ve got.”
Nina walked up to the first ambulance as the back door open. The paramedic attending to the patient jumped down, as his partner pulled the stretcher out. The patient was strapped into the stretcher and wrapped up in shiny, sliver crinkly sounding blankets.
“What do we have?” came Nina’s voice over the sirens still coming in the distance.
“A 30 year old male, with chemical burns to 70 percent of his body – mainly his chest. He’s blood pressure is through the roof, difficulty breathing, and has a history of heart attacks,” rhymed off the paramedic. “HIV positive too.”
“Alright, Patrick, Sally, and May this one is yours,” Nina pointed at the ambulance as she walked over to the next one. “Prep the ER and call the Burn ward you’ll need their help for this one.”
“What, do we have here Brett?” Nina said while nodding towards the patient getting pulled from the back.
“Nothing interesting Nina,” Brett chuckle while consulting the patients chart.
“Factory worker with burned hands – looks like she’ll be losing them. Oh and watch out, this one still have some chemicals on her.”
“What do you mean not interesting!” exclaimed the angry patient.
“He means from a medical standing,” said Nina. “Right Sarah, Aaron this is yours. When finished we’ll need help in the ER.”
Aaron and Sarah nodded and walked forward. Sarah grabbed the chart and began looking through it and asking for more information. While the other paramedic and Aaron lead the way into the ward.
“All right, let’s put her in curtain seven,” Aaron said while pointing to said curtain. They wheeled the stretcher over, and moved the patient from it to the bed. “Okay let’s have a look at you.”
“Have fun with it, we need to get back out there,” explained Brett the paramedic. He and his partner left pulling the stretcher behind them.
Aaron nodded and began to pull off the silver, crinkly blanket from the lady’s hands. He was already able to tell how bad the hands were from removing the blanket and starting to undo the gauze. The hands were still very hot, signs that the flesh was still burning underneath it. Not to mention the patient wasn’t wincing in pain from him handling the hands.
Sarah had, in the mean time; grabbed a cart of equipment to deal with the burns and anything else. Of course, she wasn’t expecting the scene beneath the wrappings.
The hands underneath the bandages were not just black and crispy, with curled in fingers from losing the muscles like they should be. No, these hands were different. They were black and possibly every other colour of the rainbow. The normal black, chard, and crispy skin had gooey clumps of colour. Colour, that seems to be melted into the burnt skin.
“Erm… are you sure these are burns?” asked Aaron.
Sarah tore her eyes away from the hands and consulted the patient’s chart again. “According to the paramedics, yes.” She said then looked up at the patient. “What type of factory did you work in Miss?”
“A candy one,” said the women, as though it was something they ought to have known by now.
“A candy factory,” repeated Aaron, looking over the hands. “And Brett said this wasn’t an interesting case. Sarah, start with taking off as much of the candy off. Then we’ll see if we can preserve the hands. I’m going to go and get a consult from the Burn Unit.”
“Okay,” said Sarah turning to the cart and picking up a scalpel. “Let’s see what the damage is like.” Taking a hand, Sarah began to slowly pick off the melted colour candy. It wasn’t easy; the candy was melted fairly well into the skin. Which made it very difficult to not take some of the skin off while at it.
Mean while, Aaron walked through the ward’s halls looking for the Burn Unit. He knew they were called to the ward from hearing the PA system. But the question was more about where were they. It was made harder since the ward was getting more and more busy with victims from the explosion.
“Hey,” called Aaron as he walked up to the desk with the go-to guy. “Do you know where I can find the Burn Unit?”
“ER one – wear a mask.”
“Thanks!” called Aaron as he ran to the back of the ward to the ER rooms. Stopping just outside to grab a mask, which he held up to his face, then pushed the ER doors open.
Emergency room one was like the rest of the ward – falling slowly apart before everyone’s eyes. The room held a busy staff that crowed around whatever poor patient that need help. The staff seemed to be busy pushing and pulling at each other to get closer to the patient. They had a good reason; the room was tiny.
“Aaron,” called out Nina from the middle of the crow. “What do you want?”
“The Burn Unit consultant,”
Nina made some sort of signal to the crowd and an older man stepped back from the group. He was old, with black, greying hair and glasses perched on his nose. He wore scrubs, with a surgeon hat, mask, and gloves.
“You need a consult?” He said in a heavy voice.
“Yes, come on, out here,” said Aaron leading the way from the room to just a ways outside. He tore the mask off once outside and turned towards the man. “We have a patient with extremely burnt hands.”
“Well that’s simple. What do you need me for?” asked the man, as he too removed his gear and headed toward the front desk with Aaron walking behind him.
“Because there is still candy colour chemical clumps stuck to her hands. I left a nurse to remove them, we need you to check if the hands are still salvageable.”
The man stopped on the spot and slowly turned around. “There’s still candy on them? How is it being removed?”
“So far with a scalpel,” said Aaron leading the way to the patient. “They are right over here at curtain seven.”
There was Sarah; standing with her back was turned to them as she fiddled with something on the cart. It wasn’t long before she turned around holding a small flame torch used to burn things away.
“Shit!” spat the man with wide eyes as he began to run towards the patient and Sarah. “DON’T PUT THAT NEA –“
Outside, on Bayview Avenue, a deafening loud explosion rang out through the area. The ground shook, and the night sky were set on fire. The explosion came from Sunnybrook Hospital’s emergency ward.
The scene was horrendous. The whole ward was nothing more then a ball of fire. Flames reached up close, to 30 feet. Some of them licked at the adjoining walk ways to the rest of the hospital. People and staff from the hospital stumbled and gathered outside looking with shocked plastered faces at the wreckage. The stood, frozen in fear, amazement, and confusing at the scene.
Sirens could be heard in the distance. Scrambling in a race to get to the second explosion in the city.
The death count stood tall at 150 people. And counting.
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If only night was day,
If only tears were laughter,
If only we were together, today,
If only we already had our happily everafter,
If only….
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